肠粉II号-50

Doesn't feeling good these few days

the purposes of calling back were all about money

I feel I am a kid who keep wasting parents' money

from the conversation, it sounds that I am actually forcing them to let me do whatever I want

I wanted to work

but I do not have a car

and I do not know anything about car

and I do not know how to maintain a car

and I do not know how much more I have to pay in future except the car insurance

and I do not know whether my salary could cover the fees

and stuffs and stuffs and stuffs.....................

I wanted to stay

I already prepared the mood of only sharing a flat or studio with you

but things always...always will be never follow what you want

a lot of unexpected stuffs happened in between

and now I do not know where I should stay

free stay but sharing house with people?

but the environment seems not very safe...

wanted to stay here

but will have to "waste" money again...

sighh...

FML...

jie...reply my email please...

T.T

just finish calling mummy

again, mummy's voice is always the best stress-releaser

advices from the mummy sort of make me feel better

but the final decision have to be made by myself

I am 22 now

Its time to get out from the comfort zone

be independent and make own decision

do not consider too much

do not think too much

be brave and take the risk

be strong and face the failure

sounds good?

hmm...I am wondering if I can do it...

肠粉II号-49

wanted to write something

but don't know what to write

so I tried hard to think...think...and think

ok...got things to write already

ok...first

the stupid front door is super hard to open now

it doesn't like the sunny weather

because the heat will make it slimmer

then it angry

it doesn't happy

then it doesn't let us to close it and keep us safe

such a manja door

only not so sunny and windy and a little bit wet wet weather can make it happy

and there is the moment when we are able to close and open the door

sighh

we tried to contact the landlord and complain about the door

but she ignored us!!!

zzz

such an irresponsible landlord...

ok...second...

found that...

we were bullied...

and it motivates us to find a proper job

as soon as possible

not the people working there not good

just the pay and the job that we need to do is...

a bit unexpected and unfair...

so...la...

ok...third

I seriously need a car here la *I think*

totepool SEEMS like providing more and more jobs to us

but all of them need to travel out to Cheltenham

so...hmm...how?

肠粉II号-48

Wanted to blog long time ago

but I was very empty and didn't know what to write

now I got something to write already

lets be the local awhile

and talk about weather

as you all know,

winter gone...

then spring...

then summer...

*I duno its summer now onot*

but what I can tell you is...

the uncle sun is directly shining us everyday

and the brother wind is lazying and didn't want to blow

then the sister cloud is hiding somewhere and didn't want to come out!

huuu...

sunny is good

but please la...have some wind...

I cannot tahan at all!

no air-cond no fan no...no...no....

I wanted to open the windows big big and let the pity little wind to come in

BUT!!!

some stupid fat bees and flies came in instead

=S

and then Felicia and I have to help them to find their way back and set them freeeeee

*actually they all very gerli...they are really very fat and bulu bulu 1...eeewww*

at night sleeping that time

the blanket is TOO thick for this weather

super hot rrrr...

keep pulling away the blanket

but can't sleep without it!!!

feel unsafe...xD

ok la...

overall...

very hot here!!!

*Felicia said...hot make noise...cold make noise...what I want?!*

* I said...I want a fan now...*

肠粉II号-47

today is Wednesday

is my third day working in WoksWagon

also is the last day I work there

hahaha

because Felicia already confirmed with Timmy that she is going to work for him

working there quite ok la

not a lot of things to do

but sometimes quite busy la

and I hate the phone there

super soft...can't hear what the customer talking at all

T.T

it makes me fear

I used to not dare to talk on the phone

because I don't know how to talk on the phone

and I know I can't hear in the phone

unless the people talk slowly to me...

*ok la...in real life, even face-to-face, I hope the people will talk slowly to me as well*

the people who currently working there

they are quite nice la

very friendly

especially uncle Wong

hahaha

they will make jokes to you

and sometimes their conversations quite funny geh

then I will just laughing there...haha

*not laugh out loud la...jz haha...xD*

work with them quite relax la

they know you are new

and they will help you up geh

overall not bad la

:)

can eat special foods there

very nice

but no more luuu

today last day working there

ngam ngam can handle

then have to say bye bye edy

when Felicia start working

I am going to be alone in the house lo

a bit scary...

hmm...

肠粉II号-46

I was tidying the photo I took with my phone

and found all these pictures

The chicken with fluffy fur

Felicia named it as doggy chicken as it looks like a little puppy

The Peacock

he was trying to attract the female peacocks but both of them didn't want to bother about him

pity...

The Guinea Pig

can you see the little round round cute cute fat fat black and brown animal in the picture

it is the cute cute Guinea Pig

there is another one with black and white, really half black and half white that one

super funny and cute

the animals above are from the Pitville Park

Tia Maria

it is a coffee liqueur

I bought it and I wanted to drink it with cream

but we ended up drink with expired-drink-able milk and coke

because we desperate to have a chill out session after dissertation

*suppose we planned to have a proper chill out session but Karthik didn't able to wake up and then didn't able to buy the drink then the plan cancelled...then told Shealin the plan cancelled but after that we were too desperate and then we have this small and short session without Shealin...sorry...*

I took this picture when Felicia and I walking on the High Street

this daughter and father so cute

as you can see, both of them holding the bear bear and gaigai

so adorable and lovely :)

I like to randomly take some pictures with my phone

but every time I was so lazy to transfer the picture and blog about it

*even though the process is just so simply*

but I will accumulate them, sedikit sedikit lama-lama jadi bukit

and then sekaligus blog them out

肠粉II号-45

#22HungerFord St became a legend

it already separated

the house left Felicia and me

really very very sad

no one to play with any more

no one "knock knock, can I come in" any more

no one "bro, sup" any more

no one "eh, lets have party lo" any more

no one "eh, what you cooking??" any more

no one "eh, drink lo...on??" any more

and so on

this is my 3rd year in UK

and this is the craziest year I have in UK

but all these will become a past tense...

='(

feels like no friend in Cheltenham any more

no more music playing down stairs

no more chilling out in the living room

no more standing in the kitchen and chit chating

no more people skyping in the room down stairs

no more people talking on the phone in the next room

no more people laugh out loud in the opposite room

arghh...why la you guys go back so fast??

we haven't even go to travel together!!

='(

now la you all force Felicia and me have to face the reality

have to start work already

have to find job already

have to wake up earlier and work already

have to quit alcohol already *I still have the Tia Maria!!!*

start from today I have to slowly throw everything out

the house is still full of things

and it feels like there are not only 2 person staying

I believe the lesser thing in the house the lesser loneliness we feel

Vicenza, Karthik and "Dominic"

don't forget both of us!!!!!!

Vicenza, buy a Berry Hitam la...so we can have group BBM

so guys...

BBM, Twitter, Facebook, MSN whatever

must keep contact ok?!

MUST!!!

byebye #22HungerFordSt.

肠粉II号-44

a lot of question marks appear on my head

starting my dissertation

but not sure how I am going to do it

and now

I am officially a research assistant

but I do not know what I am going to do

I am afraid

I wanted to find proper job

I prepared (sort of prepared la) everything to find the job I want

but I am afraid

I scared

first

I scared I am not qualified

second

I scared I couldn't handle it

third

I scared people put too high expectation on me

forth

I scared...hmm...duno la

hmm

Where should I start first

no

I should say

Which company I should go first

hmm

*question mark*question mark*question mark*

肠粉II号-43

finally I finished the bloody 8 exams

am I excited?

hmm...not really

I found that I can't relax myself

but I am trying to

I am not showing off here

but really, I have been very stress

I used to have pre- and post- stress

ok la...I 24 hours stressing

no good no good =S

but at least

I tried to talk to other people

and try to relax a bit

anyway

everything is over now

what I can do for now is

try to not worry too much

try to think positively

hope that miracle will happen on me

no more stress-caused stomach ache

no more shivering

no more no-appetite

no more books

no more notes

no more exams for me

exams phobia

assignment phobia

sighh...

my exams timetable

here, I wanted to say THANK YOU to the people who gave me supports

especially my mummy

her voice is my instant med

thank you the room mate

who company me study together in IT suite everyday

and tahan not to sleep when I sleep

=P

thank you people

for the people who having/going to have their exams

GOOD LUCK!!!

and

ALL THE BEST!!!

:D

肠粉II号-42

2 more to go

feels a bit lazy

but I must continue!!!

you can do it!!!

after that will be free~

8th May 2010

free...

FREE!!!!!!

for few days...

then gonna start other works

dissertation research

dissertation presentation

Level B homework

IE homework

help lecturer with a research

looking forward...

and sure

Post Exam Party!!!!

I want STEAMBOAT

I want BBQ

I want P-A-R-T-Y!!!!

I want SHOPPING!!!

Zac, Kezzane, Raj, SiewWen and Tracy are coming to visit us

this time must plan everything nicely

and let them have a good memory of Cheltenham

the first thing I am going to do after exam is

call my mummy and daddy

tell them I DONE MY EXAMS!!!!

=)

*I wanted to find a temple to pray...na mo oo li toh fatt*

肠粉II号-41

Hallo...

I am currently blogging 'under' the sun, on the bed now

*actually just sitting on the bed and the sun 'shining' my back, very comfortable :D*

this early morning sent my room mate to bus stop

then I slowly walk back...

enjoying the morning shiny warm sun

enjoying the morning cold fresh air

enjoying the music playing from my phone

enjoying the slow walking on the street

enjoying looking at the people who walking to work

ahhhh...this morning is nice

and today will have to continue and study for my exams

last two days was so freaking scared

*I think this whole week will be like that*

first day exam was so terrible

exam questions were twisted and bullying me!

the unexpected feeling was so strong

and the whole day was screwed up

I was collapse

While walking back home was trying to hide my feeling

just keep complaining with BeePeng

and in the mind, I wanted to go back home faster and call my mum

reach home, call back...

my eyes started to open the pipe...

the tears couldn't stop dropping

I couldn't talk properly

I couldn't breath properly

I was just too stress, expecting high on myself

and couldn't accept the reality

luckily, I am not psycho yet

because I an still conscious enough to know how to release my stress

*until I couldn't control to release my stress*

after the complains, took a nap

woke up, continue study for the next day exams

weird,

consciously I wanted to study

but the unconsciousness fight with the conscious

and then crying...and crying......again...

ah...sucks

alone in the room, it was so silent

at the moment, I just wish my room mate can faster come back from work

and I wanted to call my mum

the selfish me called the mummy again even Malaysia was already 1am

chat very long

my mum keep talking about herself and sister's babies

I not really concentrating on what my mum talking though

but I feel release when I heard her voice

*her voice is powerful :D*

the slowly slowly

I became better...

thank you mummy... =)

I know everyone was worrying about me that day

because I think I scared BeePeng up

*she called me when my unconscious is controlling my consciousness*

and I know my room mate and HuiBee did discuss about me

I saw a bit what they chatting

and I feel like crying again that time

partly because of it let me think back of what was happening

but mostly is because you all are concerning me... :D

waa...proud-nya... :D hahaha

I was telling everyone that I am very stress

every time when my course mates asking

"Hi! you alright?"

"nooooo =("

"oh no, you will be fine =)"

"hahaha...I hope so"

haha...

but after yesterday exams

I feel better

because the questions are straight forward enough

and I make sure I tried my best in recalling and answering

write whatever I remember

I tried my best

what I hope is just to get a pass

nothing much

na mo o li toh fatt

I wanted to go temple and pray hard

this is what I used to do when I was having my exam back in Malaysia

"exam" this thing is really screw me up

I wanted to take a short course in uni

but there will be some exams after the short course

then I...not feeling like taking it any more

even though the feeling of taking the course is so strong

sigh...

anyway...

I am sleepy now

sleep until...afternoon la

wake up and continue study again

add oil!

add oil!!

add oil!!!

and to my room mate and house mates too

and to BeePeng too

and to whoever going to take exams too

:D

ohya...

today when I walking back

the church outside my house like going to have some event

the mind straight telling me that they are preparing a wedding party

lol

omg...

long time never attend wedding party

I used to very love to attend wedding dinner

*because got good foods to eat lol*

and also to see the love birds get married

very happy one lorrr

I love to see girls wearing white wedding dress

nice nice... :D

I wanted to attend a wedding here!!!

but so far what I saw *when I walking walking somewhere*

their wedding dress like...not that nice

perhaps they wore their parents'

and their wedding dinner/party like quite...simple

I wanted to see big big nice nice wedding party

like those in the movies

I wanted to eat nice foods...

I miss the fish, the soup, the 'fatt putt", the prawn * if there is someone to peal the shell for me* and a lot of foods!

aiks...

feels like going back to Malaysia tim

:P

wedding cake

*wanted to upload a wedding dress picture and all of them are very pretty!!!*

*too many, so I post wedding cake instead*

*ouu...I miss China Town cake now =S*