Friday, May 28, 2010

肠粉II号-50

Doesn't feeling good these few days
the purposes of calling back were all about money

I feel I am a kid who keep wasting parents' money
from the conversation, it sounds that I am actually forcing them to let me do whatever I want

I wanted to work
but I do not have a car
and I do not know anything about car
and I do not know how to maintain a car
and I do not know how much more I have to pay in future except the car insurance
and I do not know whether my salary could cover the fees
and stuffs and stuffs and stuffs.....................

I wanted to stay
I already prepared the mood of only sharing a flat or studio with you
but things always...always will be never follow what you want
a lot of unexpected stuffs happened in between
and now I do not know where I should stay

free stay but sharing house with people?
but the environment seems not very safe...
wanted to stay here
but will have to "waste" money again...

sighh...
FML...

jie...reply my email please...
T.T

just finish calling mummy
again, mummy's voice is always the best stress-releaser
advices from the mummy sort of make me feel better
but the final decision have to be made by myself

I am 22 now
Its time to get out from the comfort zone
be independent and make own decision
do not consider too much
do not think too much
be brave and take the risk
be strong and face the failure

sounds good?
hmm...I am wondering if I can do it...



Tuesday, May 25, 2010

肠粉II号-49

wanted to write something
but don't know what to write

so I tried hard to think...think...and think
ok...got things to write already

ok...first
the stupid front door is super hard to open now
it doesn't like the sunny weather
because the heat will make it slimmer
then it angry
it doesn't happy
then it doesn't let us to close it and keep us safe
such a manja door
only not so sunny and windy and a little bit wet wet weather can make it happy
and there is the moment when we are able to close and open the door
sighh

we tried to contact the landlord and complain about the door
but she ignored us!!!
zzz
such an irresponsible landlord...

ok...second...
found that...
we were bullied...
and it motivates us to find a proper job
as soon as possible
not the people working there not good
just the pay and the job that we need to do is...
a bit unexpected and unfair...
so...la...

ok...third
I seriously need a car here la *I think*
totepool SEEMS like providing more and more jobs to us
but all of them need to travel out to Cheltenham
so...hmm...how?

Saturday, May 22, 2010

肠粉II号-48


Wanted to blog long time ago
but I was very empty and didn't know what to write

now I got something to write already
lets be the local awhile
and talk about weather

as you all know,
winter gone...
then spring...
then summer...
*I duno its summer now onot*

but what I can tell you is...
the uncle sun is directly shining us everyday
and the brother wind is lazying and didn't want to blow
then the sister cloud is hiding somewhere and didn't want to come out!



huuu...
sunny is good
but please la...have some wind...
I cannot tahan at all!
no air-cond no fan no...no...no....

I wanted to open the windows big big and let the pity little wind to come in
BUT!!!
some stupid fat bees and flies came in instead
=S

and then Felicia and I have to help them to find their way back and set them freeeeee
*actually they all very gerli...they are really very fat and bulu bulu 1...eeewww*

at night sleeping that time
the blanket is TOO thick for this weather
super hot rrrr...
keep pulling away the blanket
but can't sleep without it!!!
feel unsafe...xD

ok la...
overall...
very hot here!!!

*Felicia said...hot make noise...cold make noise...what I want?!*
* I said...I want a fan now...*

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

肠粉II号-47

today is Wednesday
is my third day working in WoksWagon
also is the last day I work there
hahaha
because Felicia already confirmed with Timmy that she is going to work for him

working there quite ok la
not a lot of things to do
but sometimes quite busy la
and I hate the phone there
super soft...can't hear what the customer talking at all
T.T
it makes me fear
I used to not dare to talk on the phone
because I don't know how to talk on the phone
and I know I can't hear in the phone
unless the people talk slowly to me...
*ok la...in real life, even face-to-face, I hope the people will talk slowly to me as well*

the people who currently working there
they are quite nice la
very friendly
especially uncle Wong
hahaha

they will make jokes to you
and sometimes their conversations quite funny geh
then I will just laughing there...haha
*not laugh out loud la...jz haha...xD*
work with them quite relax la
they know you are new
and they will help you up geh

overall not bad la
:)

can eat special foods there
very nice
but no more luuu
today last day working there
ngam ngam can handle
then have to say bye bye edy

when Felicia start working
I am going to be alone in the house lo
a bit scary...
hmm...


Tuesday, May 18, 2010

肠粉II号-46

I was tidying the photo I took with my phone

and found all these pictures

The chicken with fluffy fur
Felicia named it as doggy chicken as it looks like a little puppy

The Peacock
he was trying to attract the female peacocks but both of them didn't want to bother about him
pity...

The Guinea Pig
can you see the little round round cute cute fat fat black and brown animal in the picture
it is the cute cute Guinea Pig
there is another one with black and white, really half black and half white that one
super funny and cute

the animals above are from the Pitville Park

Tia Maria

it is a coffee liqueur
I bought it and I wanted to drink it with cream
but we ended up drink with expired-drink-able milk and coke
because we desperate to have a chill out session after dissertation
*suppose we planned to have a proper chill out session but Karthik didn't able to wake up and then didn't able to buy the drink then the plan cancelled...then told Shealin the plan cancelled but after that we were too desperate and then we have this small and short session without Shealin...sorry...*


I took this picture when Felicia and I walking on the High Street
this daughter and father so cute
as you can see, both of them holding the bear bear and gaigai
so adorable and lovely :)

I like to randomly take some pictures with my phone
but every time I was so lazy to transfer the picture and blog about it
*even though the process is just so simply*

but I will accumulate them, sedikit sedikit lama-lama jadi bukit
and then sekaligus blog them out


Monday, May 17, 2010

肠粉II号-45


#22HungerFord St became a legend
it already separated
the house left Felicia and me

really very very sad
no one to play with any more
no one "knock knock, can I come in" any more
no one "bro, sup" any more
no one "eh, lets have party lo" any more
no one "eh, what you cooking??" any more
no one "eh, drink lo...on??" any more
and so on

this is my 3rd year in UK
and this is the craziest year I have in UK
but all these will become a past tense...
='(
feels like no friend in Cheltenham any more

no more music playing down stairs
no more chilling out in the living room
no more standing in the kitchen and chit chating
no more people skyping in the room down stairs
no more people talking on the phone in the next room
no more people laugh out loud in the opposite room

arghh...why la you guys go back so fast??
we haven't even go to travel together!!
='(

now la you all force Felicia and me have to face the reality
have to start work already
have to find job already
have to wake up earlier and work already
have to quit alcohol already *I still have the Tia Maria!!!*

start from today I have to slowly throw everything out
the house is still full of things
and it feels like there are not only 2 person staying
I believe the lesser thing in the house the lesser loneliness we feel

Vicenza, Karthik and "Dominic"
don't forget both of us!!!!!!
Vicenza, buy a Berry Hitam la...so we can have group BBM

so guys...
BBM, Twitter, Facebook, MSN whatever
must keep contact ok?!
MUST!!!

byebye #22HungerFordSt.


Tuesday, May 11, 2010

肠粉II号-44

a lot of question marks appear on my head

starting my dissertation
but not sure how I am going to do it

and now
I am officially a research assistant
but I do not know what I am going to do
I am afraid

I wanted to find proper job
I prepared (sort of prepared la) everything to find the job I want

but I am afraid
I scared

first
I scared I am not qualified
second
I scared I couldn't handle it
third
I scared people put too high expectation on me
forth
I scared...hmm...duno la

hmm

Where should I start first
no
I should say
Which company I should go first
hmm

*question mark*question mark*question mark*

Saturday, May 8, 2010

肠粉II号-43


finally I finished the bloody 8 exams

am I excited?

hmm...not really

I found that I can't relax myself
but I am trying to

I am not showing off here
but really, I have been very stress

I used to have pre- and post- stress
ok la...I 24 hours stressing
no good no good =S

but at least
I tried to talk to other people
and try to relax a bit

anyway
everything is over now
what I can do for now is
try to not worry too much
try to think positively
hope that miracle will happen on me

no more stress-caused stomach ache
no more shivering
no more no-appetite
no more books
no more notes
no more exams for me

exams phobia
assignment phobia
sighh...

my exams timetable

here, I wanted to say THANK YOU to the people who gave me supports
especially my mummy
her voice is my instant med

thank you the room mate
who company me study together in IT suite everyday
and tahan not to sleep when I sleep
=P

thank you people

for the people who having/going to have their exams
GOOD LUCK!!!
and
ALL THE BEST!!!
:D



Thursday, May 6, 2010

肠粉II号-42

2 more to go




feels a bit lazy




but I must continue!!!


you can do it!!!




after that will be free~
8th May 2010




free...




FREE!!!!!!




for few days...








then gonna start other works








dissertation research




dissertation presentation




Level B homework




IE homework




help lecturer with a research








looking forward...








and sure




Post Exam Party!!!!








I want STEAMBOAT



I want BBQ



I want P-A-R-T-Y!!!!
I want SHOPPING!!!
Zac, Kezzane, Raj, SiewWen and Tracy are coming to visit us
this time must plan everything nicely
and let them have a good memory of Cheltenham
the first thing I am going to do after exam is
call my mummy and daddy
tell them I DONE MY EXAMS!!!!
=)
*I wanted to find a temple to pray...na mo oo li toh fatt*

Saturday, May 1, 2010

肠粉II号-41


Hallo...
I am currently blogging 'under' the sun, on the bed now
*actually just sitting on the bed and the sun 'shining' my back, very comfortable :D*

this early morning sent my room mate to bus stop
then I slowly walk back...

enjoying the morning shiny warm sun
enjoying the morning cold fresh air
enjoying the music playing from my phone
enjoying the slow walking on the street
enjoying looking at the people who walking to work

ahhhh...this morning is nice
and today will have to continue and study for my exams

last two days was so freaking scared
*I think this whole week will be like that*
first day exam was so terrible
exam questions were twisted and bullying me!
the unexpected feeling was so strong
and the whole day was screwed up

I was collapse
While walking back home was trying to hide my feeling
just keep complaining with BeePeng
and in the mind, I wanted to go back home faster and call my mum

reach home, call back...
my eyes started to open the pipe...
the tears couldn't stop dropping
I couldn't talk properly
I couldn't breath properly
I was just too stress, expecting high on myself
and couldn't accept the reality

luckily, I am not psycho yet
because I an still conscious enough to know how to release my stress
*until I couldn't control to release my stress*

after the complains, took a nap
woke up, continue study for the next day exams
weird,
consciously I wanted to study
but the unconsciousness fight with the conscious
and then crying...and crying......again...
ah...sucks

alone in the room, it was so silent
at the moment, I just wish my room mate can faster come back from work
and I wanted to call my mum
the selfish me called the mummy again even Malaysia was already 1am
chat very long
my mum keep talking about herself and sister's babies
I not really concentrating on what my mum talking though
but I feel release when I heard her voice
*her voice is powerful :D*

the slowly slowly
I became better...
thank you mummy... =)

I know everyone was worrying about me that day
because I think I scared BeePeng up
*she called me when my unconscious is controlling my consciousness*
and I know my room mate and HuiBee did discuss about me
I saw a bit what they chatting
and I feel like crying again that time
partly because of it let me think back of what was happening
but mostly is because you all are concerning me... :D
waa...proud-nya... :D hahaha

I was telling everyone that I am very stress
every time when my course mates asking
"Hi! you alright?"
"nooooo =("
"oh no, you will be fine =)"
"hahaha...I hope so"

haha...
but after yesterday exams
I feel better
because the questions are straight forward enough
and I make sure I tried my best in recalling and answering
write whatever I remember

I tried my best
what I hope is just to get a pass
nothing much

na mo o li toh fatt
I wanted to go temple and pray hard
this is what I used to do when I was having my exam back in Malaysia

"exam" this thing is really screw me up
I wanted to take a short course in uni
but there will be some exams after the short course
then I...not feeling like taking it any more
even though the feeling of taking the course is so strong

sigh...

anyway...
I am sleepy now
sleep until...afternoon la
wake up and continue study again

add oil!
add oil!!
add oil!!!

and to my room mate and house mates too
and to BeePeng too
and to whoever going to take exams too
:D

ohya...
today when I walking back
the church outside my house like going to have some event
the mind straight telling me that they are preparing a wedding party
lol

omg...
long time never attend wedding party
I used to very love to attend wedding dinner
*because got good foods to eat lol*
and also to see the love birds get married
very happy one lorrr
I love to see girls wearing white wedding dress
nice nice... :D
I wanted to attend a wedding here!!!
but so far what I saw *when I walking walking somewhere*
their wedding dress like...not that nice
perhaps they wore their parents'
and their wedding dinner/party like quite...simple

I wanted to see big big nice nice wedding party
like those in the movies
I wanted to eat nice foods...
I miss the fish, the soup, the 'fatt putt", the prawn * if there is someone to peal the shell for me* and a lot of foods!

aiks...
feels like going back to Malaysia tim
:P

wedding cake

*wanted to upload a wedding dress picture and all of them are very pretty!!!*
*too many, so I post wedding cake instead*
*ouu...I miss China Town cake now =S*